Sunday Morning Review 3

Good morning, Lord!

Thank you for carrying me through another week in your grace.  We both know how hard this week has been for me but only you know how much harder it could have been.  Thank you for the blessing of that protection.

I started my week in confidence and pride that I had been trusting in you more.  Yes, Lord, I fully admit that my pride was my downfall this week.

I've been so tired, Lord, that when Satan came at me with a little pain, I fell for it.  I was so used to dealing with my pain poorly, and on my own.  Forgive me for taking a couple of days to remember that only you can heal and only you can help me move beyond that pain.

Just when I thought I was back on an even keel, BAM!  That email came from Melissa.  You know how hard I have been struggling to open my heart and let go of those hurts so you can heal them.  I've just had them so long that they are familiar.  Please help me to do better.  I know that if I listen, you will show me the way to have the best relationship with her that is possible.  I know that you are the one who can open her heart so that we can truly work together for what is best for Ashlynn.

This week was my first big test after truly accepting your love for me and I feel that I have failed you miserably.  Thank you for your patience with me as I struggle to be more of the person you want me to be.  Thank you for the strength with which you have carried me this week.  Thank you for all of the earthly supports you have given me to guide me on my way.  Thank you for using EastLake as the catalyst for the changes that I needed and for blessing me with so many beautiful souls.  Help me to be a blessing to my EastLake family if even only in small proportion compared to the blessings that they have been for me.  Help us all to be obedient this week, not only in the easy things but especially in our challenges.  Guide us and strengthen us as we strive to share your love with Lawrence and beyond.  Please take the offerings of our efforts and expand them exponentially so that Lawrence may become more than just an awesome place to live but a lighthouse of your love.

Help us to remember that in  our little messes, like our seemingly constant struggle with Melissa, how blessed we truly are.  If the end result of dealing with an ex is the blessing of a daughter, who am I to complain?  We all know of at least one EastLake family who would trade such a petty battle to know that their baby girl would be healthy.  God, continue to give Jayden  and her family your strength and your love.  Thank you for the good days you have given them and let them feel your comfort and peace when the struggles are the hardest.

Guide our EastLake family to show your love to others this season as you guide me to be more obedient with both big and small things.

Love, Ericka